Now that the buzz-filled energy of the holidays has settled (at least enough for me to find a moment to sit down and write), it is time to re-visit the resolutions made for the year we are now living. My twenty-twelve was a year of transitions. I saw myself, my friends, my nation, and my planet move through many shifts, leaps and bounds, growing pains, hard truths, and changes. I shook up the snow globe that is my life, moving away from the home I have always known, the security that made me feel comfortable, and the people I love in order to plunge head first into my dreams. I pushed my own boundaries. I got lost and got found. I survived yet another apocalypse. I surprised myself most of all.
Since I’ve carried out the transitional hurdles I intended, I hold 2013 to be the year of being. My new resolve is to hit my stride. To consciously develop balance between work, love, play, friends, family, activity, and silence. To focus on each of these in just the right amount. I resolve to grow to adore each and every day. I will subtly surprise myself by deepening my existing commitments, because I have such gratitude for the life I have already created here. I promise to honor myself as much I do others. I will take back a day of rest to date…me.
Say it with me: I have nothing to resolve. I am perfect the way I am, and there is space for evolution. The only thing that needs to be resolved is the idea that I need to be resolved. The only thing I might lack is full connection to myself. Instead of resolving to change, why don’t I just be and do what is needed, when I am needed? Why don’t I slow it down, loosen my schedule, be grateful for what I do have, splurge if I want to , tell people I love them, work on my dreams, open up, understand, love…and be. Why don’t I learn to trust that everything is unfolding in perfect time, and when something is ready to be resolved, it will emerge.
That all being said, I sense the book I am writing is nearing completion. I can feel how close it is, near enough to avow this to be the year I will undertake finishing and publishing. So here I go, gettin’ in the groove!
